Yes, the title is from Moulin Rouge...I was listening to 'Your Song' when I decided to write this, so...yeah.
I guess I've just been feeling over emotional lately. I'm always so stressed out, mainly because my research paper that I haven't started yet is due Wednesday...but also because my Grandma is leaving today and soon my mom will start the process of getting her implants..(if you haven't read before, my mom had breast cancer and got surgery last week). I'm stressed because before, my Grandma took care of my mom because she was home all day with her. Now, she's going to be home all alone..and I'm worried that something might happen to her and she might need something.
I'm probably just over thinking this like I always do, but if something really does happen...I won't be able to get home.. My dad will be at work, and my brother at school. I guess she could always call a neighbor, or one of my friend's mom, or my Aunt, or my other Grandma....Okay, she'll be fine...
I just have to stop worrying. But..sometimes when I'm awake at like 3 in the morning, I can hear her screaming in pain. Just thinking about it makes me tear up a little. And there's nothing I can do to make it better. I just want to make it all go away. I want this whole thing to be over and done with already. Okay, I'm done ranting for now...I just heard El Tango de Roxanne, and it made me feel a little better.
1 comment:
First off - "Your Song" by Elton John is amazing.
And second: Babe, no offense, but it's all out of your control. It sucks.
And if you ever need it, I will get you out of the school and to your mom. Even if we're not at school - if you need to get home, call me and I'll figure it out, okay?
all my love
addy
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